I am so stressed out.
All these demands and few of them are for making me feeling better , it seems to be of others choice.
How can one, I mean me, make positive changes when the whole perspective of actually making it happen seem to be blurred in to a bundle of accommodating others need for ones attention.
This is how you do it, this is what you need to think of, this is what we need to make it work, you have to, you have to, have you?, when will you? are you doing ….. today?
So when I do sneak my time in, I seem to be wasting it on retrieving energy.
Although I am doing something and learning thing
s on the way.
It’s just, I plan my day in my head every morning, I feel in tune floating towards my goal. Then a wish from someone that means something to me come in the way, or a request and splash the plan is crashed and I cant keep the organization together. I do whats needed to just get through the day.
That’s not living, that’s surviving.
I used to be free as a bird in the soul, no matter how many people I kept in my life, no matter how much demands, I seemed to be able to sort out the priorities But now, its like i crashed and all my self confidence is squashed and all those complaining know-howlers Finally got to me. It is my own fault.
Always take responsibility for your own life, your own actions and your own choices. Even when they sometimes can be caused by others interference. In that way you can make the changes and continue feeling they are in your reach of potentiality.
When I was a kid, I was bit loud in my voice, and always had to listen to people going
ssh or stop shouting or you don’t have to scream.
And so many times I did then shout back,I am not screaming….
And all I tried to do from the beginning was add to the conversation, just to be abruptly told of.
As a child your self confidence will be so pushed to the ground when a lot of time when you speak someone you respect or care about decides to tell you that you are not talking in the right way. They meant well. sort of, I’m sure of it, but just a word of advice it didn’t do well it honestly felt like an invisible knife of ice cut through to your soul. All I tried to do was talk and communicate. So if you have a loud child or know a loud adult, they might not realize they are loud in others ears and if you want to help them lower there voice do so in a respectful manner and show the other kids how they can set the ton nicely.
HUSH, don’t scream and stop shouting is not encouraging to hear, it has more of the effect that you will put the child in feeling outside and different. In my story that goes, I didn’t stop talking, because I like talking and I knew I had the same right as them to do so. The reason why my voice is high, which I learned later when I was finally going to a speech coordinator was that I was actually quite lucky with my vocals being able to do louder sounds without effort. The effort in other hand was to learn to speak lower without whispering. and to get over the feeling of being told when to loud, still hurts but at least I now can tell them I am not screaming< without screaming> but if I speak to loud just let me know and I will adjust my volume to their needs. Okey, so this is just one aspect of all little things in life that sets a path of action and consequence .