I am panicking

Inside is a turmoil of choreographed feelings and thoughts, I am only half in charge, the rest is set upon my already set ways of reacting to a straining situation.

You can’t see what’s hiding behind my smily face, or inside my floating moves.

The worries are>

Money, or shall I say the flow of economy is in a bit of chaos at the moment

Fear or reaction from others, in particular those that mean more to me than others, yes we are talking about the loved ones..

My house is a mess, I am in such need to organise, vacuum, and get rid of stuff. I have spent the last week dragging out everything from every corner of the house, throwing away, recycling, searching for some very important papers.

Now, all this has solutions. I have like a fellow human with an enormous amount of need to be better at created a more complex situation to solve than needed. I can not sum it up WHY for you without making it sound totally awkward. So to cut the story short. I need to clear my life to a more doable way.

To make this happen I need

1 To organise

2 More income, preferably from several sources

3 Go home to visit

4 Find the medical cards

5 Sort out the economics

6 finances

7 People to back of with their blame culture and step forward with their solution based support

8 Pick up the kids from Training/ Solution I am now going Ciao!!!

Update> most sorted some to go… hallelujah!!!